[He hesitates for a long couple of seconds, genuinely considering that. Because, honestly? There are two answers.]
[On the one hand, this is... really good. Really, really good. Something about the warmth and the weight and the feel of another person settled against him like this quiets down the need for contact that's always scratching at him inside. It's a greedy thing, never quite satisfied with scraps like bumped shoulders or too-brief hugs. He usually does his best to ignore it.]
[On the other hand, though. On the other hand, this does seem close. Much closer than sharing a bench and a blanket. He thinks of a conversation spoken in low tones, tucked up in a bedroom in Avante. He thinks about what she would think, and how she would feel, and how sick it makes him in his stomach, to even imagine making her feel that way.]
[ before he shifts to get off of his lap, though only just enough to sit down on the ground next to him; his arms still wrap around his torso, body pressed close - just to the side, as if it were the nuance of closeness that were the issue but not the physical distance itself. ]
[ running his fingers against his scalp, gently massaging. hurricane is already aware he is pretty good at petting dog ears but really he's just good at headpatting ]
[ letting his eyes fall half lidded as his fingers work, finding a steady rhythm that's comforting enough that he's relaxing a little more, too. his head presses to the other's shoulder, then ]
[ if he's noticed, he's not indicating as such - and if he's embarrassed, he certainly doesn't look it, though after some time he speaks with a catch to his breath like he's hesitant ]
Do -
[ this is a silly question but he's already started like this ]
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crossmyheartandhope) wrote2036-12-02 03:00 am
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Would you rather be this close with someone else?
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[Instead of answering that properly, he just ducks his head a little more. His cheeks are decidedly flushed now, even in the poor light.]
Dude, what's with playing twenty questions all of a sudden?
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[ with a little shift, picking his head up now to look at him more properly ]
I don't want to make you uncomfortable . . . Is it bothering you? Do you want me to stop?
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[On the one hand, this is... really good. Really, really good. Something about the warmth and the weight and the feel of another person settled against him like this quiets down the need for contact that's always scratching at him inside. It's a greedy thing, never quite satisfied with scraps like bumped shoulders or too-brief hugs. He usually does his best to ignore it.]
[On the other hand, though. On the other hand, this does seem close. Much closer than sharing a bench and a blanket. He thinks of a conversation spoken in low tones, tucked up in a bedroom in Avante. He thinks about what she would think, and how she would feel, and how sick it makes him in his stomach, to even imagine making her feel that way.]
[It isn't fair, to be that selfish.]
Maybe it's just, like - kinda too close.
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[ acquiescing then, with a tip of his head ]
Alright.
[ before he shifts to get off of his lap, though only just enough to sit down on the ground next to him; his arms still wrap around his torso, body pressed close - just to the side, as if it were the nuance of closeness that were the issue but not the physical distance itself. ]
Better?
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[He hesitates for a long couple of seconds, then nods.]
...yeah. This is... probly okay.
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Alright.
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[Ducks his head, and glances away.]
...thanks.
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[ closing his eyes, now ]
Do you come here often, then?
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I got a bunch of places.
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That's a lot of blankets to get . . .
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Don't usually bother.
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[ shifts a little more, reaching up with a hand to start stroking his hair ]
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[That is also very nice.]
[He leans into it, a little, without meaning to.]
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[He's relaxing into it some, despite himself.]
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[He may or may not be blushing somewhat, because this feels max self-indulgent.]
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Do -
[ this is a silly question but he's already started like this ]
- you like monster movies?
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...yes?
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oh nnnnnnno that's their thing. his thing with requiem-san and nemesis-san. this line of conversation was a mistake but what the fuck does he do now
flustering now, ]
Have you -
Uhm, the one about a colony of sharks that form together to make a h . . .
[ it's literally called sharkicane they make hurricanes out of sharks he's talking to a hurricane an
delete him right now ]
A tropical storm system . . .
. . . Have you seen that one?
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. . . All four of them.
If you don't feel like talking, it's a nice distraction.
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If that's cool...?