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Ah- to make it a little more complicated, sometimes charging is is exactly the right thing to do. The element of surprise and opportunity, right? It's just that there's a difference in charging in knowing what's on the other side of the door and having a rope around your waist to pull you back in if things go bad and not knowing and also not having any rope at all.

... Mistakes are one of the best ways to learn. They're just also one of the highest cost ways too.

[Slumps down, so his head's resting on his arm again.]

So, what, the takeaway's get a rope and mess up less?

Having a backup plan's always a good place to start.

As for the messing up... I'd say a better plan would be be accepting that mistakes happen. And they'll cost when they do. But pushing yourself to act perfectly is just as bad.

If this is how much good I do when I'm going for perfect, I kinda don't wanna see the mess if I ever half-ass it.

I think looking at only your failures would be even more painful.

Yeah, well. Sometimes you need reminders to try harder.

And sometimes you need reminders that you don't need to tackle it all on your own.

[He opens his mouth - closes it.]

[Glances aside.]

...sorry.

Mm, I'm sorry too, I really didn't mean to lecture, but I do want to provide another perspective. What you want to do with it... that's up to you.

No, I just mean - you called me out here to talk about your plan, and instead you had to waste a bunch of time on my dumb stuff.

I don't feel like I wasted any time. I got to learn more about you and I think vice versa. To me, that's a very valuable use of my time.

...I mean. I guess. If that's your kinda thing.

I think it is.

[Fixes him with a searching kind of look for a second or two before he nods, a little uncertain.]

If you say so, dude.

[His head's still down on his arm, on the table; he makes no move to rise.]

...so when're we gonna start the one thing?

Oh- that's right, but you sure you wanna get into that? You seem pretty tired.

You seen this place?

I'm never gonna get less tired.

[ Laughs, taking his straw to poke Hurricane with. ]

You could be a little more refreshed though.

I'm okay.

[Give him a second. He rallies and makes himself sit upright again, with some effort.]

Oh- it's okay, it's okay. You can relax, I don't have anything to read yet. Just thoughts.

Yeah?

[He slumps again, some, but doesn't go all the way back down.]

What's up?

Well... can you tell me, as far as you know, the type of people who tend to go on, ah, field trips?

Uh. It's all over the place, honestly. Just, like - whoever's in the right place at the right time, I guess.

So something for the general public... And people are wary of texting, right?

Yeah. Pretty sure they use the phones to track us. Can probly read what's on there, too.

But meeting with someone in person first isn't always a possibility... Mm, alright.

That gives me a general guiding idea to work with.

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